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Re:Deppression ad suicide
(Date Posted:10/10/2009 11:56 PM)
Hi Joyce~
God cares and so do I. You matter to God!! Killing yourself is not the answer. Thats Satan way of doing things.
You Matter to God!! You Matter to God!! God cares about you. Turn to God, read his word in the Bible and pray.
God has a purpose for you!!! Yeah sounds like you are going through alot, but turn your feet the other direction towards God, and walk with Jesus. Things will get better, your just in the middle of a bad storm and need God in your life to get through this. Is there anyway you can come to church? Please contact the church you matter to God!!
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Re:Deppression ad suicide
(Date Posted:10/11/2009 1:34 AM)
Going to church is not possible. I sought help at the church previously, and to no avail. I was diagnosed with cyclothymic disorder a few years ago, which is a mild form of bipolar. (More information can be found online if you so choose.) I've been unable to seek medical attention for this, or to be on my medication, for financial reasons. It's been over a year since I've been on my medication.
Being that I currently reside in a county with the highest unemployment rate in the state, the wait list to even see a doctor right now is over 2 years. There are clinics, I'm sure, however they still require some sort of payment, which I do not have.
There is far more to my story than what is here. I have lost four children in the womb. I have been raped. My family believes me to be some sort of degenerate due to the man I was in a relationship with, and disowned me. (He had problems in his past, and was not only working through them, but improving himself as well, however that wasn't 'good enough,' seemingly, for them. I am of the opinion that forgiveness is necessary in life, and he had proven himself worthy of forgiveness.)
My heart feels as if it's been shattered into a million pieces, and those pieces are being ground into dust.
When dreams, goals, and happiness are unattainable... what's the point anymore?
I'm not sure there is one...
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Re:Deppression ad suicide
(Date Posted:10/11/2009 12:12 PM)
Hi Joyce~
You matter to God and whatever happened in the past is now in the past, you need to start over brand new today. Find a way to church. Do you stay in Elkhart? You need to stop dwelling in the past and know that God loves you! Sounds like you have alot of time on your hands for now, so start making phone calls and do some research on the computer and find out how you can get some help for some of your personal issues.The church may have some ideas for you to call or go. Start doing things to make that change . It might take alittle effort on your part to get it going but there are people who care that would be willing to help and you have to be willing to except it too. I encourage you to read the Gospels~
Matthew, Mark , Luke and John. there you will read about Jesus himself who endured alot too.
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Re:Deppression ad suicide
(Date Posted:10/11/2009 7:58 PM)
I've read the gospels, and grew up in church.
I know that I'm enduring a lot right now, but it doesn't make it any easier knowing that 'God cares,' as terrible as that may sound.
...because it doesn't feel like He does, or has, for a long time now.
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(Date Posted:10/23/2009 5:15 AM)
Reply to is_Aimoo_Guest (10/10/2009 11:56 PM) Hi Joyce~
God cares and so do I. You matter to God!! Killing yourself is not the answer. Thats Satan way of doing things.
You Matter to God!! You Matter to God!! God cares about you. Turn to God, read his word in the Bible and pray.
God has a purpose for you!!! Yeah sounds like you are going through alot, but turn your feet the other direction towards God, and walk with Jesus. Things will get better, your just in the middle of a bad storm and need God in your life to get through this. Is there anyway you can come to church? Please contact the church you matter to God!! shes a FAKE looking for attention. Claims it wasnt her that wrote this. She should just swan dive off a bridge
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RE:Deppression ad suicide
(Date Posted:10/28/2009 10:54 PM)
God isn't real and you're figuring this out the hard way.
I'm not encouraging you to kill yourself by any means, but there are a ton of people who have it worse out there. Jobs come and go the same with housing. There are so many people out there who are good hearted and willing to help you through this tough time. Strangers are going to be your best friends now as it seems your family has abandoned you. We're in a recession - people will help.
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Re:Deppression ad suicide
(Date Posted:10/31/2009 7:01 AM)
The thing is? I've been seeking 'help' in any form I can find it. I'm in a town where the economy is not showing any signs of turning around. More than anything, I want to get out of here, get back on my feet, and get back to being 'stable.'
I've lost so much in the last year and a half... my family... my marriage... I have nothing left, and that's not any kind of overstatement on my part. What I have left are boxes of personal items, not even enough to fill a room. (WITH FURNITURE IN IT.) I don't even have furniture!
It's one of those things that makes you wonder why this happens. I'm not an idiot, by any means. I'm well read, and well travelled. I actually have some job skills which should make me valuable in the right field of work, along with 'back up' skills for a secondary type of work. And yet... I'm out of work. With NO one. For the last week, all there was to eat in the house was some crackers and a jar of peanut butter. My roommate is so frustrated with the situation in regards to my funds the last couple weeks (issues with my unemployment) that I very well may be homeless in a matter of a couple days...
I've never been a drug user. I've never been abusive to anyone.
And yet... here I am...
And I can't find anyone wanting to help, willing to help, or able to help.
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RE:Deppression ad suicide
(Date Posted:11/07/2009 11:26 AM)
Joyce:
There is hope, as hard as it looks right now. You may not believe it but I would simply ask that you consider taking a step. There is a God, He loves you, and in this messed up world with messed up people, it takes time to to undo the things and people that have tried to take you out of the game and where you have been left.
I will send you a direct email with a contact person at the church for options.
If you can't physically get to the church but have online access (as it seems), I invite you to check out idochurchonline.com at 6:30 or 8:30 EST where Granger has online services Sunday nights... It's not the magic pill, but it's a small dose of encouragement and is a step. You matter. You won't be judged. You can be annonymous if you choose. But over time, the knots in your life can get worked out.
It will take time. At times people will still let you down. But you can do this. God is all about hitting the refresh button in people's lives.
Is that fair? Jesus, please give Joyce a glimmer of hope appear in her soul, that she will have courage to do the things You're already asking her to do, that she would be safe, that you will send people in her life that can help in small doses, and that she would take steps...one at a time. Amen
Mark
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