ORIGINAL POST 27TH SEPTEMBER 2005


"It is now being suggested that at the time I died I was pregnant with Dodi's baby, well it sells newspapers and keeps me once again in the headlines! What a ridiculous thing to suggest and for some people to believe, I may have been rebellious and radical in some of my ideas and behaviours, at least viewed as being so by others but even I contrary to what some people may choose to think had some morals! Can you imagine me explaining this to William and Harry? " Mummy is going to have a baby, a brother or sister for you with Uncle Dodi , the man you just met and spent your holiday with in the South of France this year and she now must arrange to marry him for the sake of Grandma and Grandpa as well as Papa of course ".... Well that's how ridiculous a suggestion it is! As I have already said on my site, read my book in the Forum area, I was not pregnant with he or Hasnat's baby as no doubt that might be the next suggestion in keeping with of course the fact suggested that Harry is Hewitt's son and my husband at the time just accepted that being the case no questions asked! They have yet to discover he and Camilla's love - child! It's all totally absurd!  Dodi and I hardly knew each other though there was a very real chemistry between us and a strong relationship was in its primary stages of development but needed time for both of us but time that we were both prepared to give it. We'd both of us suffered in relationships and also were divorced and so naturally emotionally cautious.



I knew all about Dodi's reputation and history as he also knew mine, we'd been honest with each other in this respect and both read the papers, he was a charmer and I was not naive and could tell, he charmed me but sleeping with people and being emotionally involved with them are two very different things and Dodi and I aware of this fact, felt that difference with each other. This does not mean that I'd become pregnant by him, not at all, there were the boys to consider before even engagement much less a marriage was organised and I would not have a child out of wedlock being an old fashioned girl at heart, well, in this respect anyway. Besides which I'd seen far too much of this kind of thing first hand in my work and the dreadful results of it emotionally on some people to want to entertain it for myself. There will naturally be those who would imagine in their perverse minds that I'd allow it to happen to spite the monarchy and the establishment, well I'd done that already entertaining a relationship with the man without my having to go to these extremes which might well have lost me the respect of my children and for that reason alone therefore something I wouldn’t have taken the chance of doing.




As I have said though Dodi and I were enjoying getting to know each other and if we were going to have a family, that is to say if our relationship had developed sufficiently for this to be considered, it would be then and after first engagement and then marriage that our child would have been conceived and born and not before! People wonder what I meant when I said that I had news that was going to shock people and a lot has been imagined what I might have meant and it was simply this ... I had decided to leave the United Kingdom and to settle abroad and at the time considering New York as I was tired of the British medias constant intrusiveness which had back in 1993 already led me to resign from public life albeit a short period but one in which I was able to sort myself out a bit without its intensity before of course realising that it wasn't something actually fair for me to do knowing how valued I was by the people and making as I found a much welcomed return. I wanted a new life and divorced I was free and always made to feel so welcomed in the United States and with an all important to me anyway.....different kind of media attention, a far less hostile one. I naturally would have missed the boys but I know they would have understood and at school anyway would have spent marvellous holidays with me as we always did together wherever I might be but it was also something wanted by me to make a break with any close family connection particularly in respect of my own mother and brother's opinions of me which hurt. I wanted nothing to do with them and to be as far away as possible from them to make this point abundantly clear to them.





 This and the fact I felt awkward still being in the same country as the Prince of Wales and his now new wife, a relationship that obviously I knew was going to develop though at the time not to what extent but never the less finding myself personally in an uncomfortable position and with the desire to extricate myself from it! In the United States also having a number of good friends including of course Lucia whose husband was latterly based in Washington D.C. and someone whom I missed so badly. I knew whatever I did within reason I'd not lose the people's love and respect and this was something very important to me. A very valid reason indeed against my becoming pregnant with Dodi or anyone's baby outside of marriage, it might have lost me that admiration, love and respect, something I was constantly reminded I had and so naturally well aware of and grateful for, I would hardly have put myself in a position to jeopardise losing it by any action I might take that could have been avoided by me. I would have wanted my child to benefit from loving and devoted parents who loved each other and that's something that was denied to William and Harry as well as of course myself and I was determined that history would not repeat itself in the future knowing the very real emotional damage this can do to a child through both that of my own personal experience of it as well as that of witnessing it's effects upon my boys. The child would have naturally had all the love, care and attention a mother can give a child from me, equal to that which was given by me to my boys but would have only been born in an emotionally loving and stable environment and that would have been something determined by time spent with the father to be of that child so not something considered by me with someone up until that time anyway I’d enjoyed a summer cruise with as well as cosy evenings together at his London apartment. Dodi and I as I have said were in the infancy of our relationship but both of us could tell there was plenty of potential for it to grow and we were willing to take our time in every stage of its development. Our child at the time of our deaths was our relationship and that at the time needed our tender, loving care which is what we gave it! " DIANA